Wow

The past few days have been really stressful for me thanks to Justin breaking up with me and all. -we started dating Feb. 9, 2006 and I've fallen head over heels for him- I lost 5-6 pounds in like 4-5 days. I cried myself to sleep a few nights and almost decided to just give up on Justin-see he told me we were breaking up temporarily that we would get back together but he needed some time to himself cuz he wanted his freedom to do whatever he wanted but he wanted me to wait for him while he was doing all this crap....he told me I could date other people that we were broke up so really I could do whatever I wanted but I didn't wanna date other people and I really didn't want him dating other people and he said he wasn't going to. So I came home Saturday and left for school this morning at like 615 so the on the drive back I'm sittin there thinking maybe I should just give up on him, maybe we really aren't supposed to be together, maybe I should just leave him alone completely so he can really have his space. So I decided to give him till the end of the week and if he hadn't figured out what he was doing by then, then I was gonna tell him flat out that he needed to make up his mind now...that I wasn't waiting anymore. I couldn't keep puttin myself through that everyday...I couldn't hardly eat, I cried all the time, I couldn't focus-it wasn't fair to me. But I called him this morning to talk to him about my stepmom's reasons for us breaking which are totally not true...someone made some crap up and I'm sure it was my stepmom...if she doesn't understand whats going on or things don't go the way she thinks they should she changes the story or adds to the story. But we were talking about it and he was like it doesn't even matter anymore cuz I miss you and I want you back now! I was in total shock! I couldn't believe it and I asked him if he was being serious....I was like ask me then and he asked me back out.. so we're back together! thank God. I really love him so much and I can't stand being without him. So I skipped the rest of my classes to go see him. I can't believe how much I've missed him in like 5 days....I don't mean like missed seeing him like I missed him as my boyfriend, missed knowing that he was mine and only mine and I was his, I missed the feeling of knowing that he wanted me all to himself, I missed the way he kisses me, and the was he always looks into my eyes and tells me "the reason we're so good together is because you are everything I'm not - you complete me", I missed everything about him! I love him so much and I'm so glad we're back together!!!!