Memories

Well it's been 2 weeks today since Justin broke up with me. I took him his stuff the Friday after we broke up and I was at his apartment for 2 hours. He still kissed me and told me he loved me- how weird huh? Yeah he was hugging on me and everything. He told me that he just doesn't want to be with anyone and if he did then he would still be with me. And he told me we would still hang out and stuff and kinda be friends with benefits...yeah ok. So I haven't really even talked to him since that night! He said he needs his time to himself right now so he can figure things out with his life. Wow where have I heard that before? hmm...yeah but unfortunately I really miss him! I hate that I fell in love with him...this is what I was so scared of-I knew he would have the power to break my heart but I still trusted him with it ya know...big mistake there I guess cuz he really broke my heart. And now I don't even know what to do. Last week was Thanksgiving break so I was at daddy and momma's all week so I didn't really notice that I wasn't spending any time with Justin. But now that I'm back at school I feel so lost like I'm so used to calling him at certain times and going and seeing him on certain days and now I don't. I'm not call him anymore, if he wants to talk to me then he can call me. yeah I'm really sure that's gonna happen. I don't think he even cares anymore. I wish I didn't. I was looking at my old comments on myspace from Justin and he really has changed. He left me this one day: "i love you too sweetie, youre the absolute best thing in the whole world to me, and i mean that with all my heart." And I remember he used to call me all the time while I was at school and leave me messages telling me I was gorgeous and I should hear that everyday and just telling me to have a good day. He used to be so sweet and that's the guy I fell in love with. I wish I could still have that guy. I love him.